Test Results

Written the middle of July 2015:

On the 21st day of my cycle I went in to the doctor's office and gave a blood sample to check my ovulation levels. I was actually feeling pretty excited this time since I had gotten a positive result from a home ovulation kit showing that I ovulated.  A week later I got the results back from my blood work. "Hi, Nicole. I have your test results for you. It looks like your ovulation levels were still lower than we want (10 instead of 12) so we are switching you to Femara. I'll call in the prescription for you. Still take a pregnancy test to see if you are pregnant before you start your medication."

I was crushed! I thought for sure my levels would have been high enough. But then again, we were getting closer considering I was at a 2-6 level when we first started this process. I also had the doctor call in a medicine called Provera that helps me actually have a period since I don't have one on my own. I didn't want to pick up the medicine until after I took a pregnancy test though.

On Friday, July 3, I woke up sick! I was so nauseous. I kept thinking, I hope this means I'm pregnant! I took a pregnancy test and was super hopeful! After what felt like forever....

Result: Not Pregnant... 

I told myself it was ok and that we would try this next round of medicine. It would all work out. So I went and picked up my two prescriptions. I was going to start the Provera right away to get the process rolling again. But after talking with Nathan we decided to give myself a little break. Plus it was Girls Camp in a couple of days and I didn't want to have to stress about taking medicine and being moody at camp while I was camp director.

When I got back from girls camp I decided I should probably take another pregnancy test just to be safe before starting the medicine. I woke up early the next morning (Saturday, July 11) and took a test. I knew full well it would say "Not Pregnant" like always. After all I had taken a test a week ago saying I wasn't. I put the stick down and it started the hour glass saying it was working. I check on it not even a minute later to make sure it's still working and......

PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!

The test said Pregnant on it!!! I was freaking out! Does it put the word Pregnant first and then decided if it needs to put not before it? Am I really pregnant? What if it's wrong? About 30 seconds later it pop ups with "2-3 weeks". Oh my goodness I wasn't prepared for it. I honestly thought it would say not pregnant and I would start my medicine that day. I started crying and ran into Nathan who woke up wondering if I was pregnant or sick or hurt. I showed him the test and he hugged me while I cried tears of joy and pure surprise. And some tears of nervousness as well.

Once we got over the shock of the positive test I knelt down in prayer. I was so thankful to my Heavenly Father that I had not started the Provera during the week of Girls Camp. I was grateful for a positive test! (I know a lot can still happen, but I got a positive test! I can get pregnant! I AM Pregnant!!!) I already love this little Baby Ballard so much! (It's only the size of about a sesame seed. That's crazy to think about.) I hope and pray that my body will be able to grow a beautiful, healthy, and strong body for the sweet spirit we are blessed with.

It still doesn't feel real. I have been hoping and praying for a positive pregnancy test since October 2014 when we first started trying. After being told my ovulation levels still weren't quite high enough I thought for sure I wouldn't be pregnant this time. Plus I had gotten a "Not Pregnant" test result just the week before. I have my doctor appointment all set up and I'm crazy excited. I'm going to take another pregnancy test to be sure, but I'm so happy!

I'M PREGNANT!!!