It had been on my mind for a while. "Should we try to have another baby?" Then Stockton asked a few times if we could have another baby. Then I kept thinking I was pregnant a couple of months in a row even though I was taking birth control. I finally decided to pray about it and I just kept thinking about needing to try, so I took that as my answer.
I went off of birth control and again was hopeful that maybe this time I wouldn't need fertility medicine to help. But again my cycle became irregular. I decided not to waste time and to get in to see my doctor. She put in an order for the same dose of Metformin and Clomid that I used the other two times to get our sweet boys and then I just had to wait for my cycle to start.
Right before my cycle started I had a dream. There was a little baby in our high chair and Brooks and Stockton were playing peek a boo with them. It was such a cute dream! While in my dream I remember thinking, "You don't need to keep trying! Your baby is already here!" I woke up and took a pregnancy test only to have it come back negative and then my period started later that night.
Though I was sad to have a negative test after that dream, I was grateful my body started on its own on February 5th. I took the Clomid as directed and then waited for day 11 to go get a follicle check. My doctor said I didn't need to go in for one if I didn't want to, but Nathan and I decided we wanted to go in at least the first time to make sure my body was still responding well to the medication.
When I went in for the check they found one healthy sized follicle and if everything went well I should ovulate around day 15.
Then it's the waiting game again. I had already been driving myself crazing thinking I could be pregnant for the last few months. Over analyzing everything my body did or didn't do, wondering if it was a sign of pregnancy. So I tried really hard not to do that this time. Instead I kept feeling like I probably wasn't pregnant. I was still pretty hopeful though and took a test WAY early... It came back negative. I tried to hold on to some hope as it really was super early to take a test.
A couple of days before I was going to take another test I read though my journal about trying to get pregnant with Brooks. I had similar symptoms like I did with him right before his positive test. I was getting charlie horses in my feet at night and I had some sharp cramps right before my period would be starting.
On the 29th day of my cycle, March 5th, I woke up early at 6:30 and took another pregnancy test. I tried not to watch because I didn't want to be disappointed when the second line never showed up. But then I caught myself doing a double take... "Is that a second line?" I stared at it as the line got darker and darker. I AM PREGNANT!!!!!
When I came out of the bathroom, Nathan was sitting up in bed and he said, "So... Are you pregnant?" Before I could answer he said, "You are pregnant!"
I was so shocked and grateful we got pregnant with our first round of Clomid! November 12th can't come soon enough!
